A Sonnet to the Quarter-Life Crisis

No, not quite a sonnet. I just feel stuck right now I guess. So here's some pictures to pass the time.

I've been thinking about doing a promo and giving away a pair of earrings, but I haven't decided what pair of earrings to give away. Honestly, I feel a little guilty because in general, I still feel like there's a lack of coherence in my overall design style and I'm getting a little worried that might be part of the reason I'm not selling as well as I could be. Not to mention the economy is still down in the dumps. Of course I know people are tightening their wallets and I'm not really fretting too much, but I would still like to feel somewhat put together in my aesthetic.

I'm really into the "wedding jewelry" and special occasion jewelry right now, but I keep running out of materials. I guess maybe I need to start buying "bulk" from my favorite suppliers but its kind of hard when I'm not making enough sales to warrant bulk buying and the only income we are getting (and not very regularly I have to add) is my husband's unemployment. Its a bit sad, really.

I have yet to hear from Stringing although they did say it could take up to 4-8 weeks or something like that (I can't remember and I'm a little lazy to look it up) but I keep praying that pans out for me. Not to mention the application I put in to About.com, although looking back on it, it was kind of putting the cart before the horse. :/

But, my love for jewelry making has remained intact, and seems to be the only thing in my life (other than, obviously, my children) that brings me joy. The funny thing is, I've become so used to being "poor" and unemployed that it doesn't even really bother me anymore. I look at it as a momentary place in my life that will only help me become stronger. It will allow me to better appreciate any future successes I may have and it will make me feel even more proud to walk across that stage to get my diploma. When this is all said and done, and, God-willing of course, I finally get back into a suit and work, I will be able to look back on this moment and say that I had to work damn hard for my success and the hell I'm going to let anyone take that from me...